Happy 38th month! lol. its been disgustingly long but im not complaining. see you tomorrow night! and i will see you every single day till monday. *beams*

im someone who's extremely lazy. and love convenience. all the disposable items, all the plastic bags and straws that i have been using have in some way or another contributed to global warming. yes we have been taught in school since we were young. and everyone's trying to be eco-friendly now. so its still not too late to start. and im going to try to start now.

its painful to see the polar bears eat their own kind because they are starving. its painful to think of them dying out. it took me a news broadcast to realize that we human beings are killing our favorite animals through our selfish ways.

i have another thing to add on my resolution list now.

being in a relationship causes a loss of social life. lol. but its not like i had any to begin with. rotted my entire day away. napped twice. played with the nephews. fed them, dressed them. watched them fight over toys. LOL. what a saturday.

stupid brother had to spoil my day though. didnt get to watch those cute girls on guessx3. if you dont want to let me watch then dun pretend to be kind and let me watch the start of it la. i ended up sitting in front of the tv watch 20% of guess and 80% of the stupid vampire show on ch8 and i absolutely dislike the main character. TSK.

ok whatever. im going to play tower defense tonight till i cant keep my eyes open. an otaku never changes her spots (in front of the comp or holding the psp/DS in bed). ok. on second thought, maybe i shld just try out cake mania 3 and cooking mama 3. lol.

what is minnie to do without her mickey? =(

am slightly heartbroken now. mochi just bit me. this time round hard enough for blood to ooze. =( ok but its my fault really. i went to wake him up during his sleep to get him to bathe. attempted to carry him out and caught a nice big bite instead. lol. it hurts a little. but i am to be blamed.

got him a hamhead, food and pink bedding. lol. i know he is a boy. but who says boys cant like pink and hello kitty? lol. i have forced both upon dear nephew and mochi. lol. qijie doesnt mind hello kitty one bit. =)

ok. time to rest.

back and recharged.

i didnt have much to do there. finished the theme parks earlier than expected. maybe its cuz there were only the 2 of us. no need to wait for others. managed to take a picture with stitch and *frowns* snow white. i love cinderella and belle. but queues were closed and it was no use waiting another 2 hours when we have already combed the whole park. wish to have met pooh though. lol.

saw my favorite pandas. =)) and came home to news that singapore will have pandas in 2 yrs' time! no reason for me to fly out anymore. they are ours to keep. im so applying for annual zoo passes when they are here. =D

then we spent time walking aimlessly. lol. found food republic and breadtalk. lol.

thats abt it. lol. can see how little things we actually did. i think we spent most of our time dozing off and watching movies in the hotel. i watched so many movies the past 5 days. lol. and my cantonese is so broken now. haha. im glad i managed to ask around though.

i love plane food. watched 500 days of summer and julie & julia on the plane. 500 was so-so. the girl was cute but the story was... ? loved julia & julia though. =)

im up at this hour because i need my medication and i cant get back to sleep. urgh. feeling better though. but this seems to happen every single time before i leave the country. lol. maybe my body doesnt want to leave this place. lol.

met sheena for dinner ytd. we need meetups to keep sane. haha. though it was only for a short hr. but =)

anyway i was on mc on monday due to some aches. which i didnt know was a sign to a fever breaking out. was at work feeling slightly shitty but i didnt think i was going to be sick so i ate macs. lol. that was the dumbest decision. well ive got another day of rest. hopefully i will recover soon. i just wanna sleep now. but i think i have slept more than enough. gah.

i miss my other half.

im going to see him in less than 5 hours. weather please be good so that he will be home safe and sound. =)

i tink... im a read-able person. lol. its good and bad. i dont know how to hide my emotions. and i dont have a tatemae side to me. except maybe at work.*cough cough* i cant decide if i wanna start practicing how to hide my feelings.

got pissed off bad by a friend today. i used to be the super stubborn one. haha. but now i just cant be bothered. sometimes its best to ignore the traits in a person that you dont like. makes life easier. but there are still some kind of people i would never go near. i invest my time in friends i truly like and appreciate. dont really have time for acquaintances. but sometimes the things my friends do really irks me. haha. im one level up on anger management and emotion control i tink. lol. maybe my workplace moulded me into someone more tolerant. haha. but i still dont like taking such nonsense.

2 days. he is having fun and im happy. people keep warning me abt the bing lang mei. lol. its irritating. i have 95% faith in jack. LOL.

friday's coming! but i have to get through 4 days of work. taking tomomi out had been a good distraction. but its back to reality again. i need to go back to work. and wait for him to be home. i really hope things dont change between us. i hope we will stay as obsessed as we are. lol. its scary to see how some long-term relationships end. i know fairytale dont happen in real life... but... i wanna be in my own dream land till i die.

ok. 4 days 4 days! =)

jack's due home in abt 6 days. in a way im lucky i fell sick. was too groggy to miss him too much. though i'd love to have him around when im "sick and vulnerable". haha. when i did go abit crazy a few nights. other nights i just hit the bed before 10, sometimes 8. im like a drug addict being out into quarantine. will be released on 31 Oct before 1am. haha.

his mum called me ytd. told me to go over to their place if im alone at home. haha. it was so sweet of her to do that. but there's no jack around so it very much defeats the purpose of going there no? XD

tomomi is finally here. took her to night safari last night. omg. it was literally a queueing day for us. spent abt 30 mins to get a cab there. queued for like 1.5 hrs to get tickets. had to queue again to get into the entrance. and queue yet again for cab home. how gross is it? but night safari is fun. especially during halloween. got freaked out a few times. 5 i tink. by aladdin, the tinman, some weird ass black thing, ugly witch and the stupid clown whom i thought had retreated for the night. i have no guts. though i love horror films. promised jack to go with him next year.

im still tired and still sick. though better. hope today wont be too tiring. acting tour guide is tiring. lucky im only the side kick. haha. i need more sleep.

もっと頑張らなきゃ。

i really suck when it comes to waiting. gosh. 16 days. room still not packed. lol. japanese still not touched. games overplayed. anime watched too fast. haha. i can never get my priorities right even at this age. XD

well... at least i have been spending at least 1 hr with mao every night. did abstract art painting. watched barney. blah blah blah. lol. love my nephew. ♥

expanded mochi's home as well. lol. luckily i kept a mochi fund. so i didnt have to eat further into my savings this month. XD i actually forgot that i kept money aside to buy his food and whatnots. hahaha.

im relatively broke this month. hope my savings will grow soon. having alot of mixed feelings about the people at work and other work related issues. lost my motivation to work. plus that fact that my boy isnt around, i was pretty much distracted the past week. hope i will pick my pace up again. sigh.

i think... i should just go watch more anime. lol. im surprised that jack is the one who is introducing me anime. haha. goodness. role reversal. at this point when im starting to hate japanese more and more. oh well.

cant decide if i wanna go do a diploma in accounting. its like might as well. lol. oh wells. will call the school and ask about it somemore. sheesh. im tempted. but its going to be a 7-8 months course. and i was cursing myself the other time i was preparing for my lvl 2 paper. haha. HOW? ><

jack says to just go for it. since it doesnt hurt to get an extra piece of paper. but its a little stupid to go one big round and end up getting something that i could have tried to work hard for in the past. URGH. i dont know! =( i have until december to decide i think. sheesh.

im missing my bf alot. i feel paralysed without him. distracted and moody. sigh. now i know how he felt 2 yrs ago. =(

on a happier note, mochi's extension cage arrived! exactly the same as the existing one. only newer and pinker! lol. *beams*

will try to potty train mochi soon. like sunday or so. i hope i succeed.

17 (long) days to go.

mochi is not sick. because the stinky smell went away. i think its the weather. (weejim was right)  so i saved money on the vet visit. and ordered him a cage extension. i know i shouldnt get too attached to him for the obvious reason. but i bought him to love him. and i warned myself about what i may have to go through. though i freak out too much. am too paranoid. i never regretted bringing mochi home. im actually more upset at how useless i am as a caretaker.

that aside, i have freedom at work from tmr till the end of the week. =) which is good.

and i actually managed a distinction for my lvl 2 paper. lol. its not tough tough. but i wasnt expecting this so its a surprise. haha. i failed to tally one answer and i left it hanging. so its a pleasant surprise. maybe i should continue. but tt will mean that i have to pay. and that will mean that i cant by wii resort or wii fit plus anytime soon. haha.

which reminds me. im supposed to spend some time with the wii. XD

ok. mochi's cage smelled really bad last night. its a different smell from the past. strong stench of urine. and my room got all stinky as well. checked online and he is seemingly sick. i just washed his cage again and shall see if the strong smell comes back. please be ok mochi! weejim said it might be due to the weather. but im worried. i hope he didnt get an infection. and NOT the wet tail. netizens talk about how wet tail is deadly is totally freaking me out. and its not helping when jack is in tw. i dont know what to do.

will take him to the vet if things dont get better. poor mochi. =(

im starting to feel slightly depressed.

they installed a new anti virus ytd. blocked facebook applications. TSK. i know i shldnt be playing at work but you need entertainment sometimes no? the best thing is, yahoo sg is blocked too. for goodness knows what reason. not right.

whats more, the superior ignored my words and bloody hell got my colleague to sign some guarantor letter. just to hire one stupid XXC. omg. and there isnt any agreement made with my that colleague. TSK. i dun give a shit if the XXC quits his job because we dun want to hire his XXC gf. he is replaceable. sometimes i really hate how japanese work. its not like the guy is super good or clever. just because he sucks up he gets everything. promotion, gf hired. not to mention blaming ME for the long application process and the stupid promo flight ticket he booked for his gf (and ended up she couldnt come back until everything is settled). please. i went through hell alot of trouble to help you get her over. do you even think im willing to in the first place? NO. i hate every thing about your country and your kind. TSK. he actually got his superior to talk to my superior to get me to speed things up. *roll eyes* do i look like an insurance company to you? as if i can just approve the application. *shakes head* i wonder what make his kind so full of themselves.

and the ex miss world. is she stupid or wad? ya we are supposed to give ex criminals a chance to turn over a new leaf. but she is behaving like an absolute retard im so glad she wont be representing our country.

whatever.

totally looking forward to tomorrow. jack's staying over. =) then my turn. then 3 weeks of ldr. wish me luck.

shall spend more time with my wii when the boy is gone. need to lose some weight. even my dad is making noise abt me being fat. ><

jack is sick. =( and his consultation cost like $70.50. *jaw drop* well at least the medicine was effective. but seriously. that kinda money. *heartache* hope the boy gets well soon. his in good hands. haha. his mum will fuss over him im so sure. XD

hongkong trip has been booked. somehow we managed to save an extra 100 bucks each due to our indecisiveness. HAHA. and zuji decided to give us free ocean park tix. which saved us another 40 bucks each. =) i love freebies. haha. i now own a second hand (but brand new) psp 2000. lol. conned my IC into selling me for 95 bucks. well i have to buy the adaptor. and the memory stick. lol. and mahybe when i feel alittle more well-off, gmask it. lol. well i still need to get it modified too. but lucky the bf's army mate can do it for me. *thankful* its a good deal. but i seriously should be saving hard now. lol.

gmarket is bloody addictive i tell you. lol. but i must say the transactions are speedy. no need to wait. and you get really good bargains. and endless discount coupons. XD but. i better stop.

mochi is getting rather plump. im thinking of cutting down his food a little. serious. suddenly his wheel looks too small for him. and all he really does is eat and sleep. lol. hardly see him on the wheel. i think i need to get him another exercise ball to run around my room. after i pack my room that is. haha. (i know. i have been saying that for ages.)

kinda sad that the author of crayon shin chan passed away so suddenly. =(

naoki (host nephew) must be sad that he wouldnt get to watch new series of it anymore.

life is just so... fragile.

SIGH.